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| 2004 "In Loneliness of Two Souls" | |||||||||
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| Vladislav Shahin / Autumnia "...By Your Hand" "Before Leave for Ever" "In Sorrow and Solitude" "At Eternal Parting" "Pray for Me..."
" ...By Your Hand "In the broken mirrors of eternity ... your eternity False infinity ... the lie... is your lie The paralysed reflections of youth are smouldering ... are burning down It would seem: happiness so beside ... is so near Pain... in the broken mirrors of eternity I will never see you. The cold torments a soul brought sacrifice ... for your... the only one Hardly were seen the lights of salvation (salvation???) The hope slowly disappears turning into a pain ... an intolerable pain ... in the broken mirrors of eternity by your hand It would seem: happiness so beside ... is so near In the broken mirrors of eternity I will never see you.
" Before Leave for Ever "It's our last instant, it´s our final sigh... And someone from us will leave the first in order to not return never And in loneliness of two souls (to harden by sad recollection) It´s our final beat of heart... one for two Hopelessness of despair Nothing happen such that will force to believe in the miracle ... Birth... Sufferings... Death... This that what never to change The fatal call inside the heart reminding the anxieting uncertainty This is like a final sigh before leave for ever The dying away stars in the autumnal sky reminding of death - some day it will happen Here under this sky Here on this ground The mournful end of vital way And now is nothing except the silence And now is nothing except the eternal oblivion ... except the prayers that aren't comprehend for the livings It´s our last instant, it´s our final sigh And someone from us will leave first in order to not return never And in loneliness of two souls (to harden by sad recollection) It´s our final beat of heart... one for two The mournful end of vital way And now is nothing except the silence And now is nothing except the eternal oblivion ... except the prayers that aren´t comprehend for the livings
" In Sorrow and Solitude "Filled by the gift of human death This grief is brighter the thousand suns I´ll stay with you for ever In loneliness of two souls By an image and likeness Of chagrins and losses To leave in order to return never To leave for endless awaiting In grief and sorrow In anxious emptiness In dejection and loneliness There where you don´t want to be with me I´ll stay with you for ever But only I shall stay alone In loneliness of two souls And only I shall stay alone You disappear like the sun Not to be worthy of the human life
" At Eternal Parting "Into the grave... Into the constant haven (of the transitory body) ... the eyes are closed forever ... the lips are closed forever I any more don´t feel your last kiss at eternal parting ... the eyes are closed forever ... the lips are closed forever... And "where will cry and gnash of teeth" Your tears will become the vivifying dew Downwards... Into the depth... Somewhere far away from you Into the darkness... There where never will no light Somewhere far away from you Into the darkness ... the voices becomes more silent... Your weeping becomes more silent... And I any more don´t feel your tears are flowing on my face ... Only the icy silence of a grave And only Christ silently walks beside And hiding the pain I following Him I concealing in His shadow from the intolerable light ... Now this light will become a new life for me The forgiveness of heaven let become my punishment And the silhouettes of the relic to burn out the tearless eyes It´s the blessing beyond eternity It´s a last kiss at eternal farewell P.S. It not I go away from here : it you remain here...
" Pray for Me... "Time is remain... it is simple we go away Our lifes by one instant fly by through eternity Remember me the same as you see me now... for ever What to recollect me when we´ll meet again ... and God leave my hand In order to forget me for ever Pray for me before dug tomb You see, I was your last dream Any more there will be no light: the sun never will rise again And you more never will hear the words of my frankness It is time to depart... there, whence there is no return... ... and you will not keep me... ... Never... But remember one: by this song I shall live in you... eternally Pray for me... 29.09.2003-11.02.2004 |
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| 2006 "By the Candles Obsequial" | |||||||||
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| Vladislav Shahin / Autumnia "Increasing the Grief Terrestrial" "With Wailing and Lament" "Bitterness of Loss" "...And the Life Dies Away..." "In Loneliness of Two Souls"
"Increasing the Grief Terrestrial"Once... our ways will unite and will turn in one path of sufferings Once... we´ll become a flame of one candle which becomes obsequial for us Once... we shall damn each other not halved the sun Once... we´ll become this sun what to burn out each other ... but only not here and only not now... Hand to a forehead... hand to a stomach from top to down... from heavens to the earth from a shoulder to a shoulder from right to left from you to me Three crosses over the uncrossed flesh... Hand to a forehead... hand to a stomach from top to down... from heavens to the earth from a shoulder to a shoulder from right to left from you to me Increasing the grief terrestrial... ... but only not here and only not now... ... and only here and only now... Increasing the grief terrestrial... We returns into this earth The fetters are throw off, but one cross for two Embracing the earth and eating the dust all earthly poison and our bones Forever here... 21.06.2005
" With Wailing and Lament "There is no sense to search for hope in cried eyes The mourning has held down us by the candles obsequial The falling snow don´t thaw on the cooled down flesh Cold to a cold... now all is the same The cooled down heart... (for ever), without pain and regret The death separates what to unite By widow tears By widow prays... ... By widow tears By widow prays... There is no sense to search for hope in cried eyes The mourning has held down us by the candles obsequial The wrinkles in the rays of sun... so it´s a lot of calmness So much all remained here... The falling snow don´t thaw on the cooled down flesh Cold to a cold... now all is the same The cooled down heart... (for ever), without pain and regret The death separates what to unite By wails and moanings By pangs and rebukes There are no words for farewell, the candles die away on a wind Last touches to cold hands... last touches to cold hands The sun falls into the ground behind my back Together with last part of me... together with my hope 05.07.2005
" Bitterness of Loss "Whether you think what I regret? Whether you know what I grieve? There are no those prays and spells... It only a pain inside of deceaseds No... I´m not alive... I´m as dream in your eyes No... I´m not dead... I´m (only) bitterness of loss No... I´m not alive... I´m only the grown old face No... I´m not dead... In light of the candles obsequial Blessing all your illnesses I lay my hands on the fallen asleep face Cold and calmness... My palms burn... it´s a pain inside of deceaseds [... The world of my reflections In your eyes... in your tears All comes to an end Whether you think...?]... We shall not dare to touch To icons of eternity To reflections of our faces In beams of a funeral sunset We shall not dare to touch To icons of eternity To reflections of our faces In beams of a funeral sunset No... I´m not alive... I´m as dream in your eyes No... I´m not dead... I´m (only) bitterness of loss No... I´m not alive... I´m only the grown old face No... I´m not dead... In light of the candles obsequial 23.07.2005
" ...And the Life Dies Away... "And the life dies away... Like a candle on the wind Lonely candle obsequial In my palms... I Am... ... and no more the light Nor here,nor in heaven, nor there under the ground Only there in graves …muteness and deafness Only there in mother womb... I Am... Now I bring a light into this world In order to sadden it and make it lonely Yes the light will arrive…a light of life I´ll put out it breathe out for the last time... I Am… The words of mine…embrace the sky Incinerate them for me For my approach to the line There is no return... (but only a way of returning)... Now the silence bless me I Am here: I Am the one I Am the first... I Am the last Appear before your world ... And the life dies away... Now the silence bless me I Am here: I Am the one I Am the first... I Am the last Appear before your world And the life dies away... Now the silence bless me I Am here: I Am the one I Am the first... I Am the last Appear before your world And the life dies away... And the life dies away... Like that as you deplore me Like that as you mourns by autumnal leaves I already shall hear nothing And the life dies away... Like that as you deplore me Like that as you mourns by autumnal leaves I already shall hear nothing And the life dies away... Like that as you deplore me Like that as you mourns by autumnal leaves I already shall hear nothing 24.08.2005
" In Loneliness of Two Souls "Beyond the sky So much away There where you´re not... I stay alone... I stay alone I stay alone... alone I stay alone... alone Beyond the sky So much away In loneliness Of two souls Farewell!!! I could make nothing I (too for a long time) looked in your eyes I (too for a long time) couldn´t understand that they´re dead... dead Farewell!!! I... too for a long time... looked in your eyes They any more don´t see me... but cry about me You pray for our souls By tears of the candles obsequial We are so lonely in the death We are so lonely among the misfortunes Someone´s grief was knocked at my window By broken wings …by your hand So it´s disturbing and it´s persevering I have let... it appeared mine On horizon your shadow But the sun blinds my eyes There can be I confuse? There can be I becomes blind? The first dawn alone with loneliness Pursues me languor There´s no echo at heart beat There´s no reflection in my eyes ... there can be I confuse? ... there can be I becomes blind? ... there´s no echo at heart beat... ... there´s no reflection in my eyes... I stay alone Beyond the sky So much away In loneliness Of two souls... 28.08.2005 |
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| 2009 "O´Funeralia" | |||||||||
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| Vladislav Shahin / Autumnia "In Heavens…Among The Tombs" "Blessing Your Illness" "Falling Asleep With Entreaty" "Breathe Your Mourning Into Me" "By The Candles Obsequial"
"In Heavens…Among The Tombs"The death unplaits your plaits… My death unplaits your plaits By the wind of eclipse… By the voice of water Don't look back, don't look ahead I stand there … praying to you Don't look back, don't look ahead I stand there… kneel down Don't look back, don't look ahead I stand there… praying to you Don't look back, don't look ahead I stand there…on the edge of your tomb The death unplaits your plaits… My death unplaits your plaits By the wind of eclipse… By the voice of water And I wander here…in loss, forever In regrets…grieving for… Filled and wasted…in oaths and words …there is no calm for me… Cover me with your Funeralia Disperse me with your sick breath But…never look into heavens I stand there… Cover me with your Funeralia Disperse me with your sick breath But…never look into heavens …on the edge of your tombs 09.ÕII.2007-18.VI.2008
"Blessing Your Illness"…fall asleep…I'm by your side… …I take your hand…so calm… Fall asleep…I take away your breath And your decay's inside of me Close your eyes… …for these sweet dreams For a pain inside of you Close your eyes… Whether there morning will come? Please, don't care Close your eyes… Take [me] away from your grave Let me dress your Funeralia Close your eyes… Allow me to not wake up… (instead of you) …and bless your illness… Crossing your cold hands Filling you with an old age Crossing your pierced palms I flow in you with disease In heart's beat there's a sense to believe I'm here…I die with you In a hope…dissolving me (in oblivion) Blessing you…and away from these days I'm here…give me your last breath Stretch your hands to me Let your tears wash the hopelessness With farewell groan to exhale my name ??.ÕII.2007-06.I.2008
"Falling Asleep With Entreaty"Allow me to see you like the sun Allow me to hear what's inside of me Keep me on the edge of my grave Don't allow me to look downward Carrying away in myself the tortures in my bones Falling asleep with the broken entreaty Cover me with coverlet of Funeralia …if you are…if you're here… If you are…give me your hand If you're here…give me your hand Last words…a palm have touched the lips Farewell…we fall asleep together [forever] If you are…I pray, take away it from me If I am…I'll never wake up again If you are…give me your hand …please… 05.II.2008
"Breathe Your Mourning Into Me"…and the wrinkles will cover my grave forcing my heart to be filled with the old age …and a dawn wrapped up in a pain …your mourning in me… Burn me in the candles O'Funeralia …and the nails hammered into heavens Pierce me through…burn me Breathe your mourning into me …and with tears like blood washed my night prayer …and I wait for awakening dying in a sleep with open eyes Tied together by a mourning thread Weaved with veins in one sorrow …and your breath becomes mine Now we'll fall asleep Now we'll fall asleep… 16.III.2008
"By The Candles Obsequial"I bow my head to your scorched feet I kiss the ashes among the grey wreathes Your sun has burnt like a spell...in my heart Now your dream is eternal...like my sorrow Your face is in my closed eyes And angels turned back to me They take you away Your face is in my closed eyes You're looking back at this place Where I have remained without you These heavenly epitaphies My Bible is falling asleep Forever...you are... Forever...lost and not read By my leprosy,by my defeat …by my heavenly wax,by my candles obsequial by my heavenly wax,by my candles obsequial… 16.III.2008-05.IV.2008 |
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